Monday, August 30, 2004
[[wat a nite.. - 29.08.04 to 30.08.04]]
dedicated to a numb nun
"I think you are crazy.."
To an extent.. prob i am.. bt i dunno hw to define.. to me, whatever i can do.. i believe others can do too.. bt whatever others do.. i need to dbl the effort.. what i am doing nw.. u might nt recognised or might nt even be moved/touched.. bt the point is nt for u to recognise any of many efforts and be touched/moved by them..
Sometyms i juz do what i feel lk doing.. BUT.. it is nt on impulse.. let me reassure u again.. The nite began like this..
I offered to fetch u from work.. coz i noe the transportation there is inconvenience.. i dunch want to see u so tired once again.. like the prev nite.. U told me tt u will be late as u haf a debriefing.. subsequently even later as u need to go for a meeting to discuss ur wages for the 3 days.. I dunch mind waiting.. Even if u will tk forever.. i will still wait.. I hope u understand.. U called me and told me u lost ur mp.. U told me u will r gg for the meeting anymore coz u lost ur mood.. i drove to the bus-stop and waited for u.. U borrowed my phone and called ur fren and mourned the loss of ur mp.. i knew u were crying.. i did nt sae a word.. for i noe no words cld console u.. i sent u hm..
30.08.04 (mon)
i arranged with shion to go dwn to replace his m1 sim card and replace a mobilephone plus ur greencard for u.. i know i cant give u back ur prev phone and no. Even numerous attempts to contact ur no., turned up fruitless..
I purchased a n3120.. plus a new greencard no. for u.. i went dwn with shion to ur place to pass u ur stuff.. we pleaded with u for 1/2hr.. i know tt u have ur own integrity.. bt this is nt the pt.. i juz want u to remain contactable.. and i know tt u r very lost without ur mp.. tk it as a gift.. an advance bdae present.. a gift doesnt mean anything.. it doesnt mean tt u have to accept me.. bt accept the things i do.. as i told u.. even if relationships dunch mean anything to u now.. trust me.. there r lots of things tt i am willing to give.. bt r u willing to receive??
till date.. i am still awaiting ur reply.. in response.. this is the ans posed to u on the card.. if u still haven managed to decipher..
"I cannot find the words to say that will make you mine.
I only have one simple plea, to ask for all time.
If all the words came rolling down, as water in the sea,
None would ever be the same as "will you be with me?"
[bottomline:]when all fades.. it will fade with time..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 10:03 PM
Friday, August 27, 2004
[[my lil dream - 23.08.04 till 26.08.04]]
23.08.04 (mon)
Prev nite - msg with lil princess..
0530hrs - woke up and wash up..
0615hrs - set out for changi airport t1
0645hrs - reached t1, met chris, chk-in
0720hrs - MSG LIL PRINCESS..
0800hrs - flight cx 710 depart for destination: HK
1200hrs - arrival in hk airport
1230hrs - 1330hrs - waited for transport
1430hrs - arrival at concourse hotel in prince edward
1530hrs - ate 'wanton noodles'
1630hrs - went to 'bahaus' to chk out bags for lil princess.. saw 1.. priced @HK$599.. the sales-personnel (maggie) was very hyper and cute.. WE LIKED HER!! -> chris la..
1730hrs - went to eat 'yu dan' @HK$5/stick and took MTR to LAI CHI KOK to meet mum..
1930hrs - carried goods and sat a taxi back to hotel @HK$30..
1950hrs - reached hotel and rest..
2000hrs - went to 'bauhaus'.. bought the slingbag for lil princess and another side-pouch for myself..
2115hrs - CALLED LIL PRINCESS and asked if she has recv her surprise.. she replied no..
(MSG lil princess again.. subsequently.. she replied tt she juz recv..)
2130rs - went to eat 'da bin lou' steamboat buffet.. super-noisy.. left shortly after..
2300hrs - went back hotel, wash up..
0030hrs - LIGHTS OFF!!
xxx
24.08.04(tue)
0900hrs - WOKE UP!!
1000hrs - went to eatery to eat 'pei dan chou' and 'si yao wong chao min'..
1100hrs - took MTR to SHEUNG WAN.. bought some accessories for my colleagues and lil princess..
1400hrs - took MTR to TIN HAU to visit chris relatives.. got lost..
1500hrs - chris's relatives brought us to eat 'dim sum'..
1630hrs - took MTR back to PRINCE EDWARD to hotel..
1745hrs - took MTR to GORDON.. brought some 2 tees.. plus a adidas waistpouch.. went to eat boiled eggwhite and boiled eggyolk.. hmm.. delicious..
1900hrs - took MTR to MONG KOK.. bought a pair of adidas sneakers @HK$450..
2130hrs - took MTR back to hotel..
2200hrs - went downstairs and eat 'wanton noodles'..
0030hrs - LIGHTS OFF!!
xxx
25.08.04(wed)
1030hrs - WOKE UP!!
1130hrs - took MTR to LAI CHI KOK and lunch with mum.. Had roast goose and meat plus vegetables and soup @HK$68 for 2 person set lunch..
1330hrs - took train back to hotel.. rest.. and decides to go TSIM SHA TSUI..
1500hrs - mum called.. plan aborted.. went to pick up goods..
1730hrs - took MTR to MONG KOK.. went to buy a pair of adidas sneakers again @HK$699.. went ard ladies market to shop.. subsequently took MTR back to hotel..
2030hrs - went to buy 'gai dan zai' and search for 'smelly tofu'.. bt unable to locate..
2200hrs - went downstairs and eat 'wanton noodles'..
0130hrs - LIGHTS OFF!!
xxx
26.08.04(thu)
0900hrs - WOKE UP!!
1030hrs - went to LYCHEE CHINESE RESTURANT to eat DIM SUM.. ate roast pigeon..
1300hrs - took MTR to TSING YI.. to MARITIME SQUARE.. bought a shirt for bro @HK$276.. saw hw their cineplex looked like..
1430hrs - took MTR back to PRINCE EDWARD.. bought 'yu dan'.. went back hotel and wait for transport..
1600hrs - mum commented hungry.. so we went to buy 'gai dan zai'.. and in the midst.. found 'smely doufu'.. well.. our trip is nt in vain..
1645hrs - transport arrived..
1745hrs - arrival in HK airport.. chk-in.. bought magazine.. shop ard..
1930hrs - board the plan..
2000hrs - flight cx 715 took off for SINGAPORE..
2330hrs - arrival in singapore changi airport..
2340hrs - recved lil princess's msg..
[bottomline:]quite fun.. hmm.. btw.. i saw u.. juz tt i din call u.. yah.. at least we met in HK and took the same flight back.. isnt it..? lolx..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 2:50 AM
Friday, August 20, 2004
[[the reason - 19.08.04]]
Hmm.. There's always a first for everything as i blogged prev.. Hmm.. There wouldn't be a last for everything.. I'm sorry.. Sorry came too late..
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
[bottomline:]I guess it doesn't matter.. nt anymore..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 12:10 AM
Thursday, August 19, 2004
[[rest & relax - 18.08.04]]
Hmm.. Msg her if she is feeling better..
She replied no.. itz getting worst..
Hmm.. Asked her to consult d doc.. Bt she declined..
Guess she was feeling really bad..
Coz she went home early from sch..
SMSed Shion to call her to get her to c d doc..
Accidentally sent the SMS to her..
She replied.. "Hello!? I din noe you were behind these things.." :(
I apologised.. Bt subsequently she nva replied back..
Called Shion to call her..
Took time off from work..
Rushed down to her place with Shion..
She came down.. Her voice was bad..
She had flu and sorethroat..
Still refuses to consult d doc..
Acc Shion and her for their dinner..
Walked her back hm with Shion..
xxx
Recv Shion's call..
Asked me to msg her..
She replied immediately.. RED ALERT: KPO!!
We had 3 way conference call..
Subsequently 4 way conference call..
The reason y i dunch talk is coz i am listening..
No worries..
[bottomline:]dunno y will have the urge to rush dwn to her place.. juz need to c her well.. i guess..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 3:34 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2004
[[late nite.. - 14.08.04]]
Went out after work..
Took bus 132 with shion to orchard..
Called Chris.. Claims will not reach by 7pm lah..
SMSed the little princess.. still slping..
Reached orchard..
Acc shion to collect his complimentary movie tix..
Went to coffee club..
Called and SMSed both princess..
1 will be reaching ard 1900hrs..
1 will be meeting at ard 2100hrs..
Walked down to centerpoint to meet shion's fren..
Saw my primary sch mate instead..
Chris finally called.. She reached at 8pm..
Little princess called..
Said she somewhr near.. yet so far..
We walked down to UOB..
Chris wanted to buy something for princess..
We bought a rabbit figurine..
Little princess had to attend a frens' bdae party..
Walked down cuppage..
Saw my cousins.. lolx..
We met up at 2130hrs..
We took a bus down to why not..
Met fred and his fren there..
Went into why not.. saw Jeff..
Chris and others started their game..
Subsequently.. the drag show..
In no tym.. Chris was high..
Little princess having headache..
Heard tt fred's fren took a liking to little princess..
He asked if darren is her bf..
I said 'gd frens'.. BUT 'hands off'
Dun ever think lah.. I dun lk it k..
But fred's fren keep wanting to mk her drunk..
The reason y i dun drink is bcoz of this..
I just feel a need to tk care of her.. dunno y..
She took my jacket.. coz her skirt too short..
Ltr she wore it.. lolx.. nearly crashed my specs..
Chris was hungry..
We left the club @0330hrs..
Went for supper at havelock road..
Chris and fred left while kenny was in d gents..
When he came out.. he was damned pissed..
Den he hinted to send little princess home..
I told him.. "Sorry.. we all live very near to each other.."
C'mon.. dun ever try to hit on her..
Itz too obvious for anyone to see.. esp me..
We went down to little princess's hse playground and chat..
I fell aslp..
We assessed little princess's attribute for being a CSO..
i think u make a betta 1900 svc chatline..
Darren sent little princess up.. coz she timid..
Waited for him.. took a cab home..
We talked abt kenny..
Dun lk the fact tt he tried to hit upon her..
Reached home.. @0615hrs..
Got questioned.. -siGh-
Just told her a lame but real excuse..
[bottomline:] last tym gg to why not.. so many unhappy things..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 12:45 PM
Saturday, August 14, 2004
[[no more.. - 14.08.04]]
i shall speak no more..
for i haf spoken..
for no words matter..
i shall show no more..
for i haf shown..
for no actions matter..
i shall persist no more..
for i had persisted..
for no persistance matters..
i shall love no more..
for i haf spoke..
for i haf seen..
for i haf showed..
for i had persisted..
but none matters
for i love u..
bt u love me no more..
[bottomline:]nothing matters..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 12:56 PM
Saturday, August 07, 2004
[[anticipation..? - 06.08.04]]
Sometimes I just wondered whether it was plain anticipation or real excitement. Turned in quite late yesterday as was searching for a song. Hmm.. a song for the serial 'herbalist affair'.. Saw the show last year but it came out in channel u again. I guess the best part was the theme song.. lolx.. Weird.. I tht i had copied the file correctly into the cd-r bt guess i forgot to do a dbl chk and ttz the only song which didn't work.. My sincere apologies.. Guess i'm too blur..
Hmm.. After a long week, Chris finally succumb to MC.. Finally she answered our calls after numerous attempts to contact her.. Hey.. Chris.. u noe i am very concerned abt today bcoz i have something impt to do.. Luckily u turned up.. or u will have missed it.. lolx..
I know my attitude still suxs.. but do try to pardon me.. i am on the route to learning.. simply juz for someone.. -u know who u r-
Perhaps you say our thts are different.. but.. dear.. i still love u..
adapted: "i dun need u to do things for me to get appreciated.. but if u can do it.. i wun mind.. coz i am appreciating u.. right from the start.."
[bottomline:]i wun give up on u.. till u decide to give up on me..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 1:37 AM
Monday, August 02, 2004
[[my presents - 01.08.04]]
Hmm.. First day of the month.. Have to basically drag myself to work.. Life's a torture.. lolx.. Well.. Finished unwrapping all my presents.. Hmm.. A really wonderous 'One & Only 21st' indeed.. Furnished below are the details of all my gifts..
=key pendant (white gold)=
[[my grandma]]
=$200 zara gift voucher=
[[my small uncle plus auntie]]
=sony hifi=
[[chris/shion/fred/daisy/lily]] - haven recv yet..!
=swatch irony diaphane= [[candy/cherrie/jeffrey/els/germaine/jolene/wayne/winston/vanessa/vernon]]
=swatch irony chrono=
[[bee ting/cynthia/derrick/jessie/sherry/steve]]
=boss in motion=
[[caixia/furong/huizhen/liyun/mayling/weiting]]
=polo ralph blue=
[[evette & bf]]
=pig in a box=
[[my same age cousin grace]]
=pendant=
[[my lecturer! ms teng]]
=2 'spoilt brat' tee=
[[cat/eveline/joan/willyn]]
=cushion=
[[huiling]]
=adidas bottle=
[[joel]]
=sembawang music store gift voucher=
[[jeannette]]
=something special=
[[my one & only dear]]
[[bottomline:]] i dun need the greatest gift.. for the greatest gift comes right from d heart.. i love the wordings..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 2:06 AM
