Monday, August 30, 2004
[[wat a nite.. - 29.08.04 to 30.08.04]]
dedicated to a numb nun
"I think you are crazy.."
To an extent.. prob i am.. bt i dunno hw to define.. to me, whatever i can do.. i believe others can do too.. bt whatever others do.. i need to dbl the effort.. what i am doing nw.. u might nt recognised or might nt even be moved/touched.. bt the point is nt for u to recognise any of many efforts and be touched/moved by them..
Sometyms i juz do what i feel lk doing.. BUT.. it is nt on impulse.. let me reassure u again.. The nite began like this..
I offered to fetch u from work.. coz i noe the transportation there is inconvenience.. i dunch want to see u so tired once again.. like the prev nite.. U told me tt u will be late as u haf a debriefing.. subsequently even later as u need to go for a meeting to discuss ur wages for the 3 days.. I dunch mind waiting.. Even if u will tk forever.. i will still wait.. I hope u understand.. U called me and told me u lost ur mp.. U told me u will r gg for the meeting anymore coz u lost ur mood.. i drove to the bus-stop and waited for u.. U borrowed my phone and called ur fren and mourned the loss of ur mp.. i knew u were crying.. i did nt sae a word.. for i noe no words cld console u.. i sent u hm..
30.08.04 (mon)
i arranged with shion to go dwn to replace his m1 sim card and replace a mobilephone plus ur greencard for u.. i know i cant give u back ur prev phone and no. Even numerous attempts to contact ur no., turned up fruitless..
I purchased a n3120.. plus a new greencard no. for u.. i went dwn with shion to ur place to pass u ur stuff.. we pleaded with u for 1/2hr.. i know tt u have ur own integrity.. bt this is nt the pt.. i juz want u to remain contactable.. and i know tt u r very lost without ur mp.. tk it as a gift.. an advance bdae present.. a gift doesnt mean anything.. it doesnt mean tt u have to accept me.. bt accept the things i do.. as i told u.. even if relationships dunch mean anything to u now.. trust me.. there r lots of things tt i am willing to give.. bt r u willing to receive??
till date.. i am still awaiting ur reply.. in response.. this is the ans posed to u on the card.. if u still haven managed to decipher..
"I cannot find the words to say that will make you mine.
I only have one simple plea, to ask for all time.
If all the words came rolling down, as water in the sea,
None would ever be the same as "will you be with me?"
[bottomline:]when all fades.. it will fade with time..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 10:03 PM
