Sunday, October 24, 2004
[[why..? - 23.10.04]]
Hmm.. This question is repeated over and over..
I just feel emotionally charged.. Yah.. Ttz the way I will describe my feelings now.. I told you.. If I am standing at the far end of a corner.. If I shout.. I will at least get an echo as a reply.. But from you.. Theres none..
I told myself tt I will wait.. wait patiently.. WHY?? WHY!!? WHY??!!! Why am i desperately seeking for an answer..? I just can't understand.. I just can't comprehend.. MYSELF.. What is exactly going on..? What am I exactly thinking..? My words and actions.. They DUN tally.. Why??!!?? I just wished I had an answer.. An answer from you..? Nope.. Itz an answer from myself.. A simple promise I cant fulfil.. Whats the use of making it in the first place.. I am beginning to doubt myself..
Words that I sae.. Were they meant to be just words.. Pleasing to the ear.. Nice for the eyes.. Touched the emotions..?? NO!! I didn't mean it THAT way.. I meant what I wrote.. Every single word.. Which came out from the bottom of my heart..
Actions that I displayed.. Were they meant to make you believe that I never like you at all..?? Were they meant to be tt irritating.. annoying..?? NO!! I like you.. I really do.. I can't comprehend my actions.. I can't look at you directly.. What exactly am I hiding..? The eyes lies the keys to the heart.. YOU have already taken my heart away.. My heartbeat.. I feel them beating for you..
I am holding on to something.. Issit HOPE..? I saw a glimpse of hope at the end of the tunnel.. I hope itz you at the end of the tunnel.. I hope itz not a letter telling me otherwise.. I have fallen deeper.. in love with you..
I never paused and pondered why I like you.. I never stop to question myself.. Coz the feelings never stopped.. It never paused.. It never lessen.. It never diminish.. It will never happen.. I cant be more sure this time..
Someone whom can make my life so complete..
Someone whom can turn my life upside down..
Someone whom my feelings are so strong for.. THAT I cant deny them.. I cant..
Someone whom I am so afraid of losing..
Someone whom makes me feel so emotionally charged..
I have fallen in love with you.. Will you complete my life..? Will you be the missing piece in my heart..? Will you..
I hold the truth to my heart..
I will never break your heart..
I will never hurt you once..
I can't mend ur scars..
But I will protect you from harm..
I will love you..
From the bottom of my heart..
[bottomline:]will you complete my life..?
emotionally charged.-evewbb 1:20 AM
