Sunday, January 30, 2005
[[monsoon.. - 29.01.05]]
Hmm.. Finally.. New hairstyle..
Went down to bugis to meet sherry..
I was late.. due to massive jam at cte.. =(
Should have just taken a mrt dwn..
Wasted $11 on cab fare.. Damn it..
Went to monsoon..
And the receptionist infm tt it was full house..
And told me tt I had to wait..
Is tt some kind of joke?
I replied tt I had made an appt..
But she still insisted tt it was full house and I had to wait..
So I just left after leaving my contact no..
And the nX thing i did was to complain to "higher authority"..
Within 10mins.. I recved a call from the receptionist..
Asking me to return to the salon..
But it was nt a nice day at the salon..
Coz I was made standing for more than 45mins..
Sherry did her perm..
And finally.. It was my turn..
I dyed my hair deep brown..
Coz.. It finally dawned on me tt blond is diff to maintain..
And I had a wispy haircut.. =)
Oh.. My hairstylist Addy..
He increased his charge to $125/haircut..
Damn it..
I am seeking alternatives..
My total bill came up to $250..
While Sherry's bill came up to $500..
Yup.. Thats the amt we have to fork out..
And we finally took our photocards!!
After a lapse of 1 year.. lolx..
It was dinner at Ajisen..
Movie "Nobody knows" at cine..
Ttz how my whole day ended..
Worst part..
I am gonna get an earful from my mom..
I have not cleaned up my room..
Arghhhhh.. Help!!!!
//i like my hair now.. =)
emotionally charged.-evewbb 1:57 AM
Saturday, January 29, 2005
[[zouk - 28.01.05]]
Hmm.. Was it shopping therapy once again..?
Or was I just so into shopping nowadaes..?
I seek no answer..
Hmm.. Went to town with my sis..
Initially was just to get my boardshorts..
Bt subsequently..
I got a tee and bermudas from dkny which was around $300..
But bcoz of club21 sale, it was reduced to $150.. =)
Afterwhich.. I went to get my nautica boardshorts..
And.. My calvin klein underwear.. lolx..
Hmm.. Seems as though I am so brand conscious nowadays..
But nt as disastrous as my sis..
Who bought a pair of miss sixties jeans for like $300..?
Yeah.. We are both.. Spendthrift..
I've got my sis's bad habit..
Save me.. ;]
xxx
Oh well.. Recved an sms from cat..
"zouk is playing rnb tonite.."
She asked if I was interested..
I declined.. Reason being.. I was broke..
But subsequently.. Em's frens wanted her to go zouk..
Coz it crew's members nite..
So we juz prepared ourselves and went..
The music was great.. The DJ was great..
But it was damn damn packed..
Yup.. But I met alot of people..
-Jane (ex temp from singtel)
-Dawn (our BIT lecture mate)
-Xueling (the cartel girl..)
Hmm.. Oh yah.. And cat saw fiona xie..
And my sis saw diana ser..
I didn't see..!!
We left around 0130hrs..
Simply coz it was too crowded..
And cat had to catch a movie..
//my fav hangout.. =)
emotionally charged.-evewbb 1:07 PM
Thursday, January 27, 2005
[[love is a journey.. - 27.01.05]]
Hmm.. Okie.. I am too free.. I must admit.. to go thru each and every profile and stumbled upon this.. lolx.. Well.. Crappy eve is back!! Watch out!! =)
L O V E is a Journey
A good relationship isn't a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love and two people. Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and it can hurt more than we can believe too.
When it does not really hurt when that person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.
Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartache and happiness at the same time. That's the reward and that's the risk. Unless we are willing to experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved.
Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person can ever have. And there's a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. It's the difference between a love that's fickle, wild and short-lived and one that's tender and passionate, nurturing and lasts a long time.
The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us,takes work because it's about keeping a relationship.
Loving someone takes efforts. We have to be able to communicate with each other. Nobody can read anyone else's mind. We always presume that our partner knows what we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other's thoughts but it's never perfect and takes time to develop.
Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is blessed.
Respect her for who she is, and not what you want her to be.
Everyone is pretty and special in her own special way.
No one is perfect. It is true love which closes the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface of acceptance for each other.
True love sees and accepts a person for who he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better.
The power of true love to a person is undeniable. A relationship needs commitments too. What is love without commitments from each other anyway? It's like principles and values. Everyone has them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them.
The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.
When i love someone, i'll let her know.. i never know wat will happen the next min.. learn to build a life together.. learn to love each other.. for who she is.. not wat she is..
xxx
Every day everywhere, people fall in love but just how many of these relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships which are formed only for the intense feeling of falling in love? I know hundredsof friends who say the magical words "I love you" but more often than not, the truth is just I am IN love with you.
There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone.
If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love with you because of the present you. This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts. When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see the heartache of such a relationship.. where both were only IN love with each other.
But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she loves you and really means it, you have to ask yourself if you love him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love.
It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking.
Let your heart guide u.
emotionally charged.-evewbb 10:47 PM
[[kbox - 26.01.05]]
Hmm.. Recved a call from lene..
Mobilization alert!
Location: Hougang Plaza
Time: 2200hrs
Activity: KTV
Yeah!! Our favourite activity is finally BACK!!
After an absence of around few months..
But I did went once with Jo..
So nt really counted..
Made a booking.. Prepared my stuff and took a cab dwn..
Juz in time tt they just reached..
Yeah.. KTV session started..
But the sound system was bad..
BUT..
It did nt dampen our mood..
Clearly.. Everyone was in a jovial mood..
-shrugs-
I didn't quite get it.. Coz i missed out on the earlier part..
By 0230hrs.. We were getting quite lethagic..
So we had a theresa teng marathon..
Each of us had to sing her song..
Sexy Naughty Bitchy by tata young was the last song..
We left at 0300hrs..
xxx
And yah.. I struggled to get to work this morning..
Time: 1400hrs
Action: dozing off at work..
Mood: Sleepy
===
Time: 1500hrs
Finally came my break..
Long awaited.. We are having BIS training.. with Jon..
Ended: 1700hrs
===
Well.. At least.. I did nt need to answer calls for like a whole of 2 hours..
But her prob case.. Itz really problematic..
I tried every solution..
But I have to revert back the case to her..
My sincere apologies..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 8:22 PM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
[[i really dunno.. - 26.01.05]]
Hmm..
Some things have passed..
Some things have been reflected if needed..
Some things have been said..
Some things have been told..
Words said..
Letters wrote..
Friends we still are..
You claimed tt I had changed..
You claimed tt I am nonchalant..
You claimed tt I am being harsh..
You claimed tt I dun need to say I'm a true friend..
Actions will show..
I replied tt you are thinking too much..
I replied tt you are over reacting..
I replied I am not..
But you refuted the above..
In the office..
You are my colleague cum friend..
Outside the office..
You are still my friend..
These are not assurances..
Do you need assurances..?
I think not..
Offering assistance is the most natural thing to do..
If I could.. I would..
Quoted:
"Please don't judge me by my face..
by my looks..
or the way i behave..
Please take a look a little deeper..
way down deep inside..
And although you may not see it..
i have alot to hide..
Behind my clothes d secrets lie..
behind my smiles i softly cry..
Please look a little deeper..
ans u will see the lonely little girl..
tt lives within me..
If you found her..
you'll realised she is insecure.
That if you just look deep enough..
you'll find the REAL ME.."
===
i always think tt the quote belongs to you..
what lies in tt shadow..
no1 knows..
what lies behind tt mask..
no1 asks..
for itz not an answer they are seeking..
it will be the question they are guessing..
let tt not be an answer..
let tt not be a question..
for what lies in a mystery..
will be interesting..
//eve
emotionally charged.-evewbb 9:42 PM
[[jap bbq - 25.01.05]]
Hmm.. Finally.. A Japanese restaurant with the right ambience.. The right staff.. The right food.. Lolx.. Hmm.. We went to Gyu-Kaku at Chijmes..
The entrance leading to the restaurant was.. nt very splendid bt it was peaceful..
The moment the sliding was opened.. What awaited was absolutely fabulous..
The ambience inside was.. very cosy..
The servers were very attentive and of coz.. very good-looking..
The food was the best..
I had i. unagi bibimba (eel rice in hot stone bowl..)
-kimuchi
-karubi soup
-shitake mushroom
-asparagus foil grill
-hotate (blackpepper)
-karubi (blackpepper)
-karubi (garlic)
-buta karubi
-sausages
-aburi bacon
Hmm.. Fabulous.. =)
Hmm.. At the end of the dinner..
The waitress presented us with moo-moo hp accessories..
The one tt I have on my z1010 now.. =)
My new once-in-a-blue-moon hangout restaurant.. ;]
emotionally charged.-evewbb 7:03 PM
Monday, January 24, 2005
[[slack.. - 23.01.05]]
Hmm.. Korean serials soundtracks.. Translated.. Tugged the heartstrings.. But I always believe.. Songs are just songs.. What a day to slack.. ;)
part 1
Once again..
I entered into the world of unforgotten memories..
With unforgotten tears..
I have a blissful dream..
But you are my hindrance..
Should I forget you..?
part 2
i will hold you tight..
i won't let your tears fall..
Why can't you feel my heart..?
emotionally charged.-evewbb 1:43 AM
[[chill out.. 22.01.05]]
Hmm.. We have devised a new method to chill out without spending any cash.. Tt is to hang out at each other's place.. No frequent clubbing.. No frequent movies.. Hmm.. Jo was ever so interested to impart her mahjong skills to us.. We went down with the mission of helping her clear her room.. But once we stepped into her room.. I could only stare in disbelief.. Yah.. Still the same old Jo.. The one we helped to clear her room 4 yrs back.. And.. -shakes head-
We sat dwn in the living room to watch ICE-AGE.. Halfway thru.. They started the manicure thingy.. Luckily I was excluded.. ;) Afterwhich.. We were being persuaded to start the mahjong session with her.. Jo wanted to play the whole full round.. We still have 16 rounds to go.. When we decided to end.. It was 4am in the morning.. By the time I reached hm.. It was around 5am.. And I had to pretend tt I was home at around 3am plus..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 1:33 AM
Thursday, January 20, 2005
[[phuture - 19.01.05]]
Hmm.. Finally.. One day when I was so enthu about clubbing..
Got my beloved cat to go with me..
We went down quite early with Cat's colleague, Angie..
Shortly after, Angie's frens Jo and one SIA air stewardess arrived..
We made our way to phuture first to chill out..
We had bailey's on the rocks and vodka ribena..
Midnight madness came on..
Cat and I had e-thirtythree..
Angie's other frens arrived and ordered long island tea..
Everyone got their butts off and started to dance..
Subsequently.. before the midnight madness ended..
We had another round of bailey's on the rocks and corona..
And.. We started to venture to the dancefloor..
I thought I saw my sec sch fren..
She seems to be talking to me..
But I wasnt too sure..
so i just /ignore.. (but I found out ltr.. indeed she was my sec sch fren)
I guess I was intoxicated..
By the tym I finished my corona..
I was signaling to cat tt i needed the washrm..
It was such a funny situation..
As i was feeling very hungry after clearing my stomach..
I went to eat..
And guess wat.. out came everything.. YES.. everything..
But it was a night to remember..
//btw.. have u met a banker before..? ;)
emotionally charged.-evewbb 1:04 AM
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
[[frens - 19.01.05]]
Hmm.. Was browsing thru and found this.. quite true to an extend.. I always believe fate lies in ur own hands.. But when circumstances arises.. You leave it to fate.. Contradicting.. but always true..
Have you ever felt like you knew someone a long, long time ago,
Another place, another time, a friendship of the souls?
Two people who share a bond for reasons neither know,
A feeling that they were friends, a long, long time ago?
Did they stumble onto each other by pure circumstance,
Or was it fate and destiny that played a certain hand?
Two souls intertwined, they are worlds apart,
But the soul, it knows no difference, in matters of the heart.
Somehow they are drawn together,
fate has brought them back,
Each living worlds apart, they journey separate paths.
When this life is over, and a new life begins,
Their souls will find each other, two souls that we call friends.
emotionally charged.-evewbb 3:14 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
[[shopping therapy - 17.01.05]]
Hmm.. Finally one family day.. Which I was present.. Yeah.. Itz not tt I don't bother.. Itz most likely due to my work schedule.. And I really have bad time management.. Well.. -shrugs- No one is perfect.. Sometimes.. I just prefer time with my friends..
We went for early high-tea at Crystal Jade at Taka 4th floor.. That mistaken identity once poped up.. Yup.. Was mistook for being SI Olinda Cho.. Being her..? I wished.. Lolx..
First stop.. We went to GUESS @ taka and bought a top..
Second stop.. We went to Calvin Klein @ paragon to get underwear..
Third and final stop.. We went to GAS @ paragon to get a jacket..
Hmm.. Total spending for that day.. ~$500.. and to pay my credit card bills ~ $600.. I am down to $100.. But I just exchanged my ERS.. lolx.. =)
emotionally charged.-evewbb 1:53 AM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
[[don't.. - 16.01.05]]
*Don't stray, don't ever go away*
*I should be much too smart for this*
*You know it gets the better of me*
*Sometimes, when you and I collide*
*I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time*
*Don't get me drown, let me down*
*I say it's all because of you*
*And here I go, losing my control*
*I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face*
*It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye*
*Let all the things you mean to me*
*Come tumbling out my mouth*
*Indeed it's time to tell you why*
*I say it's infinitely true*
*Say you'll stay, don't come and go*
*Like you do*
*Sway my way, yeah I need to know*
*All about you*
*And there's no cure, and no way to be sure*
*Why everything's turned inside out*
*Instilling so much doubt*
*It makes me so tired, I feel so uninspired*
*My head is battling with my heart*
*My logic has been torn apart*
*And now it all turns sour*
*Come sweeten every afternoon*
emotionally charged.-evewbb 9:07 PM
Thursday, January 13, 2005
[[thoughts - 13.01.04]]
i cant behave in this way..
coz i'm not like that..
i am in control of my emotions..
or that is how i portayed..
that is how i struggled from within..
"i cant even trust the person standing in front of me..
when i start to doubt myself.."
the journey.. like an illusion..
in the desert.. like an oasis..
in my life.. like a dream..
i have chosen reality..
from when i returned u the lock..
was when u were meant to be my fren..
the security of a promise.. to be there..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 10:57 PM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
[[dreams - 08.01.05]]
Dreams are supposedly a continuation and consolidation of all the daily events in life that we have experienced or thought about..
Apparently.. It was to be the events that one feared about.. She left.. Apparently.. She did.. When she promised she will not.. Seems like an illusion at first.. She was at the ferry terminal.. But upon reaching.. The boat had set sail.. Attempts to call out to her seems fruitless.. No voice came out..
Further the boat sailed.. Further I was away from her.. Different scenes seem to play.. The moment that boat was gone.. I knew she was gone too.. forever..
A painting I cant depict
Seems much more indepth..
Within it.. Identity lost..
IN search of it..
Feelings gone..
Trapped inside the painting..
What i could see was within..
A reflection of others..
A mirror image of myself..
As much as i want to get out..
I cant..
When everything seems so vague..
She stood in front of the painting..
Seemingly to enjoy the painting..
What she saw was a reflection of herself..
She was enjoying the reflection..
A painting she drew..
Yet..
She failed to recognise..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 12:32 AM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
[[truth - 06.01.04]]
Hmm.. I remembered the date.. 06.08.04 as the day when I met you for the first time.. It was a date not to be forgotten..
The truth.. Or perhaps my true feelings.. I have never been able to reveal.. It hurts just as much..
More than often.. I can't seem to comprehend my own thoughts, my own feelings.. It feels as though I am a stranger to my own thoughts/feelings.. Each time I try to say.. I will think.. Silence will prevail..
Most of the times, I might be feeling this way.. Yet I will tell you I'm not.. Just like if you asked if I was upset with you for doing certain things.. I will always give you the same answer.. "You have your own life.."
Many times.. I tried to cross the bridge.. But I found that the bridge couldnt accomodate the stuff tt I was carrying.. I contemplated.. I decided to leave behind everything and cross the bridge empty-ended.. It was something that I learned.. I will learn to build everything and gain back everything tt I left behind.. It was a new life tt I wanted to start..
I may seem very nonchalant.. But I am not unfeeling.. I know whats going on.. Words I couldnt say.. I will hide it behind my heart.. So it will not be reveal..
To you.. I may seem to be an acquaintance/friend.. But to me.. You are more than a friend will be.. Someone whom I really wish to take care of.. Someone whom I wish to protect.. Someone whom I wish to chat with.. Someone whom I wish to listen to.. Someone whom her presence itself is enough to complete my life.. Someone.. Whom I will never ever hurt..
At times.. I really wish tt one day.. perhaps.. the door to ur heart will be opened.. perhaps with the key tt I have in my hands now.. But numerous attempts to unlock the lock has tramatised both the lock and the key.. Till the xtent.. I just feel that as long as you are here.. It will be more than enough..
Indeed.. The lil leaf might find that the tree is not doing its part in protecting the lil leaf.. Battered by the strong winds.. Battered by thunderstorms.. The tree will still be there.. For it knows.. If it walked away.. The lil leaf will be hurt.. In the event tt the lil leaf gets blown away.. the tree is prepared to give up everything it owns.. to look for the lil leaf..
A lock was meant to bring you security.. Perhaps.. the security tt u cant get.. It was presented in another form.. I promised to be there for you.. No matter what.. The promise was locked.. As long as you hold on to that lock.. I will hold on to the promise..
My feelings have been true.. Right from the beginning.. Even if it seems like an endless road.. I will continue the journey.. For it was a journey tt I chose.. With u..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 2:52 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
[[trust me.. - 05.01.05]]
words i may not say..
actions i might nt display..
status i nva question..
status quo is something precious..
a YOU i cherish..
a YOU i treasure..
a YOU i care for..
a YOU i will be there for..
a lifetime warranty..
a promise i locked..
i walked behind you - to break your fall..
i walked beside you - to listen to you..
i walked in front of you - to protect you..
tantrums u can throw..
abuses u can hurl..
hurt u can inflict..
misery u might have caused..
but i know u dun mean it..
ttz tt way u r..
i have grown to accept it..
i will not leave..
for even if i do..
i will still come back..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 11:10 AM
