Thursday, January 06, 2005
[[truth - 06.01.04]]
Hmm.. I remembered the date.. 06.08.04 as the day when I met you for the first time.. It was a date not to be forgotten..
The truth.. Or perhaps my true feelings.. I have never been able to reveal.. It hurts just as much..
More than often.. I can't seem to comprehend my own thoughts, my own feelings.. It feels as though I am a stranger to my own thoughts/feelings.. Each time I try to say.. I will think.. Silence will prevail..
Most of the times, I might be feeling this way.. Yet I will tell you I'm not.. Just like if you asked if I was upset with you for doing certain things.. I will always give you the same answer.. "You have your own life.."
Many times.. I tried to cross the bridge.. But I found that the bridge couldnt accomodate the stuff tt I was carrying.. I contemplated.. I decided to leave behind everything and cross the bridge empty-ended.. It was something that I learned.. I will learn to build everything and gain back everything tt I left behind.. It was a new life tt I wanted to start..
I may seem very nonchalant.. But I am not unfeeling.. I know whats going on.. Words I couldnt say.. I will hide it behind my heart.. So it will not be reveal..
To you.. I may seem to be an acquaintance/friend.. But to me.. You are more than a friend will be.. Someone whom I really wish to take care of.. Someone whom I wish to protect.. Someone whom I wish to chat with.. Someone whom I wish to listen to.. Someone whom her presence itself is enough to complete my life.. Someone.. Whom I will never ever hurt..
At times.. I really wish tt one day.. perhaps.. the door to ur heart will be opened.. perhaps with the key tt I have in my hands now.. But numerous attempts to unlock the lock has tramatised both the lock and the key.. Till the xtent.. I just feel that as long as you are here.. It will be more than enough..
Indeed.. The lil leaf might find that the tree is not doing its part in protecting the lil leaf.. Battered by the strong winds.. Battered by thunderstorms.. The tree will still be there.. For it knows.. If it walked away.. The lil leaf will be hurt.. In the event tt the lil leaf gets blown away.. the tree is prepared to give up everything it owns.. to look for the lil leaf..
A lock was meant to bring you security.. Perhaps.. the security tt u cant get.. It was presented in another form.. I promised to be there for you.. No matter what.. The promise was locked.. As long as you hold on to that lock.. I will hold on to the promise..
My feelings have been true.. Right from the beginning.. Even if it seems like an endless road.. I will continue the journey.. For it was a journey tt I chose.. With u..
emotionally charged.-evewbb 2:52 PM
