Saturday, May 07, 2005
[[manifique - 06.05.05]]
Each word, each phrase, each sentence,
sounds so familiar,
it seems like a walk back memory lane.
But, everytime i tried to reflect,
my mind turns up blank images.
It was as thou it had happened, or had it not.
worst part, i cant rem the date still.
here i m sitting down, cracking my brains.
i only remembered dinner @newton circus,
d conversation @east coast.
memory lapse, i really think i have stm.
she mentioned tt it was unfair tt i did nt know what happened den.
as-a-matter-of-fact, i really din noe.
but now, whats the point of knowing?
i mean,
a person i loved then,
a friend now,
d truth tt mattered so much to me b4,
d truth tt i had no wish to pursue further.
somehow,
she did mentioned tt i neglected her for almost 1 whole mth?
how i had no time to talk to her?
how i never bothered to contact her?
she claims tt i will always claimed to be bZ.
to which, i think hard - i really did.
no memories.
i tried again.
to which, i was thinkin to myself,
was this part for real?
i really tht she got the part wrong.
coz i dun rem anything - really.
it became scary.
to an extent, she cld rememver vividly at least certain things of the past,
which to me, seems vague.
in this world,
there are too many IFs.
as in,
IF that did not happened,
what might have happened?
IF everything was reversed,
what could hold for us?
But, IFs never really happens.
IF you already know,
I had known.
Sometimes,
things do end on a happier note,
so many things u will discover.
certain things frm ur past.
my past, which i tried to bury,
after 2002..
i realised.
that day,
i left my set of prints in the sand,
it got washed away by the waves,
since then,
it washed away part of my memory.
//cut.period
emotionally charged.-evewbb 2:16 AM
Friday, May 06, 2005
[[scary ME - 05.05.05]]
i watched 'infection' with jeannette on 010505,
tt was supposed to be a horror movie.
okie, i got scared.
my definition of being scared?
if u were sitting anywhere behind me,
or beside me,
you will realised tt half of the time,
my jacket was used to cover my eyes. -lolx-
i watched 'house of wax' on 050505..
and the above procedures were repeated. -lolx-
okie.. i enjoy the process of being scared.
BUT..
only applies to movies.
NOT in real lives..
THANK YOU!
emotionally charged.-evewbb 2:09 AM
